Cheating on myself

I cheated…on myself!

I had been doing wonderful on my new healthy living regimen.

Last night I decided we should go out for dinner. I thought I was strong. Turns out… old habits never really die, they just wait until you aren’t looking to rear their ugly heads.

I ate food I know I wasn’t supposed to. Mind you I ate less of it, but still. I drank alcohol. Less of it then I used to, but really! And then… I smoked! I haven’t smoked since I quit.

I woke up this morning feeling like I had been on a drunken weekend binge. My body is exhausted, my lungs hurt and I am not terribly proud of myself.

Now, that being said, I will give myself a few kudos. While I ate an appetizer of fried cheese mozzarella, I did keep up with how many I ate. I had a salad and the ranch dressing was on the side so I dipped my salad into it. I had a steak with grilled veggies and new potatoes. I had 3 oz of the steak, 2 of the small potatoes and a few of the veggies.

All in all, I didn’t really dip too badly into my weekly bank of flex points. I did better than I had in the past, but it’s the feeling of UGH after the meal that was the real eye opener.

Now, I am not encouraging people to cheat. I am just saying that it was not near as much fun as you may have imagined in your mind it would be.

I still have not gotten the Persona 3 game. Sigh! I am going to have to go to the mall this weekend and pick it up.

Needless to say, after lasts night little party, I went home, watched a few more episodes of Star Trek Voyager on DVD and went to sleep.

Tonight is a game night. It has to be. I need one. I feel like I have the shakes. LOL!